I had that "itch" over the weekend.

infamousone,

I am so tempted lololol!...hmm

Misspeaches, thank you. You know the funny thing I have noticed about this whole thing that amazes me is that through it all...

I did'nt even cry, I swear. I mean I was sad, upset and hurt, but I did'nt really boohoo about it.

kinda made me wonder, ya know?

jojochan.

Jojochan, I'm sorry about your recent breakup, it's a hard thing to go through. YOU WILL SURVIVE! I promise....take this time to ENJOY your new-found freedom....you will find someone special soon enough..in the meantime...have a good time....but be careful!!

Thanks delilah,  my caution lights are on. lol.

Now things feel different, music, the air, colors and food, ect. But; it's all good. Now I can get back to my music and amature photography.

jojochan.

 

Another thing that I'll have to get over is thinking what she is doing with someone else. Who's holding her, Who is she allowing to be with her. I blow those feelings away real quickly, but it's hard to just dismiss them. Especially when you remember then passionate nights and mornings you would spend with that person. Then all of a sudden they let you go, as to them those fellings were nothing but a release of tension, stress. To me in my mind they were special and ment so much. And since she said she loved me I, as a dummy took it for face value. Which got me wondering...She was Infatuated with the IDEA of being in love rather than actually BEING in love. Plus for her and me it was a rebound relationship that was probably destined to fail. In the end she showed herself to be selfish, self-centered and callious.

And no matter how many guys she'll let in her life NONE of them will EVER love her the way I did....

NONE of them with such passion, none with such compassion and patience that came straight from MY heart and soul.

oh well...NEXT IN LINE!

jojochan.

 

 

right on brutha~!! 

TS (of the 'snoop dogg has helped me get through it too' class)

LOL! Ya know it T.S

jojochan.

 

jojochan

If she couldn't wait round to find the real you, that you were and are trying to find she's NOT even worth a thought.  (even though I know it hurts).  My ex-husband cheated on me a few times, while he was beating me up telling me I was worthless - I took a sledge hammer to the car we had in show condition that he had given to me as engagement present.   (He loved that car, I only liked it cause I could beat most people off the line)  I still feel good about that.  There wasn't a straight panel left in that gleaming paintwork.  I dropped the motor onto the concrete..... damn it felt good.

My beloved of a the new variety kind is fading, he's so niave sometimes and at other times he's like an old man.

You take care and keep going.

Tan

Damn, girl......!

((((kiddotan))))You are NOT worthless...no one is.

jojochan.

I'll take hate over depression anyday.

Better is not caring.

Best of all is when you reach the point of blissful happiness in having found a new love.

 

Take care

Sounds like you're dealing with this quite well. You should be commended on that. It's time to get onto a new path in your life!

Regarding the CD:

When me and my ex split up, she phoned me (I wasn't home) and left a message, asking me to meet up with her so I could give her a copy of her resume (which I had). I didn't meet up with her, but I put it in an envelope and mailed it to her.

If she ever phones you again, don't pick it up. You're finished with her. There's no need to drag the relationship through the mud any longer. You're on a new path, and you're best off to continue down it. You'll only be moving backwards if you continue to stay in contact with her. Healing can only occur if you quit picking at the scabs.

Now, to celebrate your new path in life, go get some new clothes, a new hairstyle, grow/shave your facial hair, basically anything that gives you a physical change. It will make you feel like you're on a new path!

Best of luck in your future endeavors.

That's funny, considering that I had lost 15lbs now over this. I wear smaller clothes, brighter clothes. And I'm growing my hair longer now. I feel better about what happened...she did me a favor.

jojochan.